i just finished all my 8 papers for finals. woohoo. :) i now finally get to relax. as for the results, i'll just leave them to God. ive already tried my best and i'll hope for the best though there is one paper that is rather awful and nasty.
2) pre-exams.
a) this easter, ive decided not to travel. so, i spent the entire 6 weeks at home with some irregular trips down to town to shop and eat some delish food. my first two weeks were spent doing my computational methods project. one memories i had from this project was i spent 3 horrendous hours checking letter by letter, number by number, sign by sign for just 1 undetected error for my program. 3 hours in the library seeing the white and black fortran screen. and guess what is the error? miss audrey is too 'smart' that she typed O as 0, meaning i wanted to type capital o but instead what i did was, i keyed in a zero! this error caused me to waste 3 hours of uneasiness and annoyance that i will never get back in my life. see, a little carelessness and i am deemed to pay for the expensive price. but dissatisfaction aside, im glad and thankful that i have completed it.
b) on the 4th week of the study break, i was in the worst state of my life. i was suddenly nervous and anxious. and being a little 'paranoid', i worried a lot about practically everything. at that time, my mum was in china. i needed someone to talk to.i didnt tell my dad cause i didnt want him to be worried. and since i always have a daily conversation with mum, i somehow missed her and wanted to hear her voice let alone, talk to her. i wasnt keen on telling her my issues but i wanted to just talk to her. however, it would be pricey for her to receive my calls. so, i did some short calls and multiple sms-es;at the same time trying to surpress my worries, desperation and sadness. somehow in between, she did sense something wasnt right and by then, i was also too weak to put on a strong mask already. so, i poured out everything. exam stress, some-issues-i'd-not-want-to-mention-here and i admit there was a wave of homesickness. it really affected me. i'd say that was the weakest me. its like ive changed. perhaps i grow weaker as i age? HAHA. (anyway, if im old, then, someone who's reading this is even older. 2 years isnt a small discrepancy! :P)
now, when i look back, im indeed happy and blessed because during that time, my close friends and *cousins* were there for me; skyping with me, listening to me and pointing out when i was blabbering nonsense, giving me advice and encouraging me to be positive. thank you for loving me and for telling me everything will be alright. :)
c) in march i made up my mind to not go back home for the summer break. having gone back for summer last year, i decided to spend this summer here and seeing more of england and of course, going for a euro tour! initially, mum didnt buy my idea in the but she gave in after some reasonings. and we both agreed that it would be a good experience for me if i stayed in uk for summer. honestly, my mum is like a fortress- functioning as both a support and an obstacle. but she is an important fortress to me. she supports me so i dare to dream and have the courage to chase those dreams. on the other hand, she is a positive obstacle which allows me to improve myself and get back on the right track in case, ive drifted away.
d) in april, i went for the royal wedding parade. :) michelle came over that time. my housemate had her friend from her taiwan mission trip over at our house. his name is julius and happened to be my junior in college. however, i didnt know him back then. the 3 of us went for the wedding parade. uhmmmm, we didnt go. i mean we did but there were too many ppl that it became impossible as many entrances have been blocked. we were also hungry, so, we ended up going for lunch in chinatown which of course, followed by desserts! this time, in bubbleology - its a new bubble tea shop opened in soho. im a big fan of bubble tea and wanted to try.
e) my review on bubble tea in bubbleoology: the price is considered alright for me. a large cup is £3.75. its £3.50 at other places for a standard glass. the bubbles/pearls are of better quality compared to other shops. but there werent many choices yet. the employee is nice and friendly. i asked if i can have a choc-coffee bubble tea; which is not in the menu. HAHA.when he served me mine, he told me that no one has ever requested for a mix. HIHIHI. i sure am demanding. :) chelle had almond and chocolate and julius; almond and vanilla. the latter is the best mix ! anyway, im sure they will add in more to their menu in the future.
3) post exams
a) its the end of may now. after i had my final paper, i went for a proper meal with friends and came back home to clean the room! now, im practically relaxing, doing some leisure reading, watching dramas and playing my long-abandoned fb games. :) and of course, more talking with my mum and dad. i called my brother yesterday afternoon after so long. we had a long talk and lotsa sharing and loud hearty laughters.
b) when we talked yesterday, i realized my brother has grown. mentally more matured. he is now 18; a young adult. this is not what that comes to mind when i think about my brother. he now has his own thinkings and ideals; is growing and going through that phase i once have been. i found it amusing that the baby is now a college student. how fast we all grow. but to me, he will always be that baby brother who would always run to the big sister for security and protection whenever he sees a lizard, cockroach or dragonfly, the little boy who would stare at me in astonishment and admiration with his big round eyes, the innocent kid whom i tricked to put plaster on when he was bitten by mosquitos since i didnt want him to annoy me; asking me to scratch for him. most significantly, he is the little boy who acccompanies me in my childhood days; and is still growing up with me; my one and only sibling.
c) last night, i skyped with two awesome girlfriends, meiyun and alice from alice. it was so good talking to them. it was my first time skyping meiyun in these 2 years. we really suck in keeping in touch but we know deep down inside us, we do care and are always rooting for each other.
meiyun put this as her status which i so love:
its lovely to see how we all have grown and i very much look forward to our reunion.
well, i would like to stop here.
to all who are still sitting for exams, best wishes.
to all who are preparing for them, gambate !
to all who are done with exams, lets end this chapter beautifully just like how we started it with much anticipation and excitement.
to one faithful reader who always request me to write, thank you for just everything. there are times when i see that you are more than a friend, u r like almost a BIG sis to me.
to all, have a wonderful summer wherever you may be. God bless.
xxx
auds
